Now You Know
Now you know the honeydew nectar
spread across the light – like a
limit – sweet but blurring.
It comes to blend the black to grey,
falsifying the true colour, gnawing
like an animal at its netted cage.
Now your fate is tightened –
has no large space to grow or rest to let it yield
towards strength, but it wanders
half-made, without proportion, agitated
like a mind unable to hold one clear sentence
but can hold terror nonetheless.
You do not exist the way you once thought.
You orbit the garden like a predator its prey,
never entering, never making the move to kill,
buckled under such tension, the sound
of your footsteps hurt, revolving,
devolving down the ant hole.
Almost decades, you turn from this exit to that exit
never finding the way out.
It has been this way. Almost
you can believe no other. Almost
your dream is gone.
Copyright © 2006 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Subliminal Interiors”
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