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Trap
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Hours near the composers,
full nights healing through slumber.
The cavity within is like gasoline
spilled on water, expanding, making rainbow
poisonous hues.
Many times I thought I was free, but still
I was driven by obsession, metaphysical but
destructive, driven to explore that which cloaks
a form but never reveals a face.
Tempted, in an old land, wasting time. Because
my fountain has lost its theme,
it drips without flow, without gusto.
I allow myself to be extravagant
where I should be frugal, losing
my energy like blood into the tiger’s expanding jaws.
I allow myself to be reigned by addiction –
each hand moving the demon-stone, surging with
desperation, red and pulsing for relief.
Cold endurance. Cold hours in the morning when
I am left alone with myself, forced to discipline
this phantom monster. It is hard not to get absorbed
in its other-worldly folds. It is hard
to hold tight
to my personal religion.
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Copyright © 2006 by Allison Grayhurst
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First published in “Bewildering Stories”
http://www.bewilderingstories.com/issue453/trap.html
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Brilliant poem on the nature of addiction and the collective cultural sleep driven by the mass hynosis of the mass media – is what it brings to mind for me – not to mention my struggle with junk food addiction and my addiction to junk or negative thinking – innocent, driven, inadvertent – yet consequential. This poem is a helpful stepping stone for me to hold fast to wakefulness while also holding onto my compassion.
“I allow myself to be extravagant
where I should be frugal, losing
my energy like blood into the tiger’s expanding jaws.
I allow myself to be reigned by addiction –
each hand moving the demon-stone, surging with
desperation, red and pulsing for relief.”