is always frantic, shooting like bullets
randomly into the air. Your eyes are electric,
tottering on insanity’s indefinable edge. At the corner,
I see you. Myself, wanting to avoid the face
I once believed in, wanting to slow and vanish
before you lift your head and see me –
bright and unaware of the hesitation I harbour –
pounds in my pockets,
I have nothing to give you but trite formalities
and the illusion of ease.
I have finished with you long ago.
I have been raised up
from my desperation. I carry my lamp, fuelled
by a trust in something better.
Your son, like you, has a beautiful smile.
But in no way can he hide
his drowning – lingering for years on fear’s full shore,
serving his dark mistrust
and the cockroach he keeps under his bed.
Bless you both. Bless you
for the green grass you tried to grow.
You reached, but never far enough to make a difference.
I have no hatred. I have no longing. I have only
Copyright © 2010 by Allison Grayhurst
Published in “1947: a literary journal” April 2017
Published in “Winamop” September 2015 under the title “Rescued”
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