between my fingers


between my fingers


I feel the vibration of deep dives

and hard climbs, reaching plateaus

away from flesh and air.

I ease the split with closure,

heavy flesh squeezing tight

against more flesh, and letters that speak

only the necessary truth. I am through with money

and other ridiculous creations.

I’ve decided that it is solo or it is nothing –

that there will always be a lack and always, inspiration.

I found myself a tunnel, wide enough

so it looks like flat land.

I found myself some seeds that would not grow.

This is the stuff to work with.

This is hard and it is wonderful.

Between difficult places, I long for war,

but know what I really long for is connection.

I know that a wound of loss,

a wound of deep disappointment, is really

a sugar bowl.



Copyright © 2010 by Allison Grayhurst



First published in “Venus in Scorpio Poetry E-Zine”


You can listen to the poem by clicking below:


“Allison Grayhurst intertwines a potent spirituality throughout her work so that each poem is not simply a statement or observation, but a revelation that demands the reader’s personal involvement. Grayhurst’s poetic genius is profound and evident. Her voice is uniquely authentic, undeniable in its dignified vulnerability as it is in its significance,” Kyp Harness, singer/songwriter, author.

“Allison Grayhurst’s poems are like cathedrals witnessing and articulating in unflinching graphic detail the gritty angst and grief of life, while taking it to rare clarity, calm and comfort. Grayhurst’s work is haunting, majestic and cleansing, often leaving one breathless in the wake of its intelligence, hope, faith and love amidst the muck of life. Many of Allison Grayhurst’s poems are simply masterpieces. Grayhurst’s poetry is a lighthouse of intelligent honour… indeed, intelligence rips through her work like white water,” Taylor Jane Green, Registered Spiritual Psychotherapist and author.


Reviews of ‘Pushing Through the Jelly Fire’:

“This, (Pushing Through the Jelly Fire) is my second favorite book of poetry by Allison Grayhurst. I have it in paperback. I read a lot of poetry across a lot of blogs but Grayhurst’s work stands above the crowd and is of tremendous quality. I highly recommend this and The River is Blind. Her quality of writing is of a high standard and never ceases to lift my spirits as I turn pages in paperback or kindle,” Bruce Ruston, poet, photographer, founding editor of The Poetry Jar.

“Another Grayhurst masterpiece, Allison’s work has inspired me to continue creating and reading poetry,” Ann Johnson-Murphree, poet.



One response to “between my fingers

Leave a ReplyCancel reply