I turn my head

stiff with anxiety’s brutality and shame.

I fill my lungs with the cold fumes

of survival and find myself

lost from the legacy of miracles on my garments,

lost from the jewels under every stone in my yard.

I turn my head

and I see again the gifts that pull me through,

every time, each time at the last minute.

So why do I suffer in doubt, blistering

with fears that never hold water? The world

teaches me it is calculating and void of mercy.

God teaches me of only mercy, of treasures

astounding and undeserved but given with the love

of a thousand parents to their only child, teaches

me not to listen to the babbling crowd so full

of good advice and my future’s concerns.

God speaks of grace, with grace manifesting at each

brick corner I face. At every impossible deliverance,

I am delivered.

I release my held-back breath.

I accept your goodness like a song that has finally

developed to fruition, sunning the darkness once so coveted

in my head –




Copyright © 2004 by Allison Grayhurst



First published in “Spirit Fire Review” January 2017






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“Allison Grayhurst intertwines a potent spirituality throughout her work so that each poem is not simply a statement or observation, but a revelation that demands the reader’s personal involvement. Grayhurst’s poetic genius is profound and evident. Her voice is uniquely authentic, undeniable in its dignified vulnerability as it is in its significance,” Kyp Harness, singer/songwriter, author.

“Allison Grayhurst’s poems are like cathedrals witnessing and articulating in unflinching graphic detail the gritty angst and grief of life, while taking it to rare clarity, calm and comfort. Grayhurst’s work is haunting, majestic and cleansing, often leaving one breathless in the wake of its intelligence, hope, faith and love amidst the muck of life. Many of Allison Grayhurst’s poems are simply masterpieces. Grayhurst’s poetry is a lighthouse of intelligent honour… indeed, intelligence rips through her work like white water,” Taylor Jane Green, Registered Spiritual Psychotherapist and author.



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