My Ever-Ghost


My Ever-Ghost


You make your move

on the rollercoaster ride

20 years into the future.

Being blind is hazardous,

though the blood and the fire

is nothing more than a primal dream,

nothing more than art without sophistication –

thin, lacking strength or substance.

You smile under the cover of a dry and terrible light,

the light of sharp unshadowed

contrasts, a paint-by-numbers make believe

that I believe has cut you short.

The unseen root is the tree’s source of life

that you refuse to accept, so you stand there,

straight there, easily blown over,

unable to derive nourishment from what is underground.

You formed my fingerprints but not

the rhythm of my stride. I won’t deny you, but

instead I will allow you to burrow into my quiet spot

and build your home beside the measure of my faith.

You are my ever-ghost, the presence of what

I cannot heal. You make your move,

and all of this is yours,

like an act of violence void

of every meaning, an act that remains

but will not endure.



Copyright © 2008 by Allison Grayhurst



First published in “Jumping Blue Gods”, July 2013


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“Allison Grayhurst intertwines a potent spirituality throughout her work so that each poem is not simply a statement or observation, but a revelation that demands the reader’s personal involvement. Grayhurst’s poetic genius is profound and evident. Her voice is uniquely authentic, undeniable in its dignified vulnerability as it is in its significance,” Kyp Harness, singer/songwriter, author.

“Allison Grayhurst’s poems are like cathedrals witnessing and articulating in unflinching graphic detail the gritty angst and grief of life, while taking it to rare clarity, calm and comfort. Grayhurst’s work is haunting, majestic and cleansing, often leaving one breathless in the wake of its intelligence, hope, faith and love amidst the muck of life. Many of Allison Grayhurst’s poems are simply masterpieces. Grayhurst’s poetry is a lighthouse of intelligent honour… indeed, intelligence rips through her work like white water,” Taylor Jane Green, Registered Spiritual Psychotherapist and author.


Review of ‘The Many Lights of Eden’:
“’The Many Lights of Eden’ is a journey: a journey of the heart through youth, anguish, struggle, spiritual awakening, grief, death, love, loss, guilt, struggle, despair, hope, surrender, God, sensuality, imperfection, motherhood, aging, the vanquishing of the devil, indeed, many devils, the inevitable fall from perfection and the casting off of old wineskins for a new one. Perhaps speaking of this book as a chronicle of spiritual maturing would be more accurate, the realization that there is spirituality within imperfection and that handmade temples cannot hope to compete with the spiritual temples within each of us. ‘The Many Lights of Eden’ is a diamond. It is a beautiful collection of insights. Allison Grayhurst’s thoughts and writings are a deep well. Drink from it, for the water is clear and crisp. This collection is a MUST-READ,” Eric M. Vogt, author of Letters to Lara and Paths and Pools to Ponder



3 responses to “My Ever-Ghost

  1. I like ‘my ever-ghost’ – the title, the idea, the poem
    and the alliteration – ‘formed my fingerprints’….’violence void of every meaning’ …. it has the touch of Anglo-Saxon poetic techniques

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