It is not like hell
but like a fathomless void,
on the civilized heart, emerging
like a great anger out
of each fundamental nerve.
It is like failure, like a
cold and ruthless insanity that tugs
aimlessly on the mind’s fine fibres.
It is like me and I am
prey to the avoided, to the ugly, whirlpool
mouth of isolation, witness to the long
journey through death and need.
I am prey to the contemptuous
dark that gnaws its way under
every freshly formed smile.
It is not like innocent pain
but like a tearing or a mutant fear
that piles and piles,
Copyright © 1997 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “The Cape Rock”, 1994
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