I lay by your twisted completeness – an ocean

of transformative screams, rolling, lulling, the colour of ice

and sometimes, gold.

I breathe, though I cannot

imagine the radiant death inside you that

maims all warmth, casts out the churning world

like a house fly. Touched by your beauty and

the sharp lines of your natural conviction,

I am final – ripped from darkness into

something too bright – dunked into the chilled water,

naked, my heart not even where it belongs, but rising, rising

not pulsing – pausing and still because

this is not sorrow, not the past nor even is it heavy.

Because I touch your hand

and it is fixed like a star is fixed in the sky or glass

impaled so deep it touches bone. I touch

and like you I am contained, blue –

and I am now and better than,

bigger than

a thousand storms.



Copyright © 2011 by Allison Grayhurst



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First published in “Triage Monthly Issue 2” (now called The Journal of Applied Poetics)

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“Allison Grayhurst intertwines a potent spirituality throughout her work so that each poem is not simply a statement or observation, but a revelation that demands the reader’s personal involvement. Grayhurst’s poetic genius is profound and evident. Her voice is uniquely authentic, undeniable in its dignified vulnerability as it is in its significance,” Kyp Harness, singer/songwriter, author.

“Allison Grayhurst’s poems are like cathedrals witnessing and articulating in unflinching graphic detail the gritty angst and grief of life, while taking it to rare clarity, calm and comfort. Grayhurst’s work is haunting, majestic and cleansing, often leaving one breathless in the wake of its intelligence, hope, faith and love amidst the muck of life. Many of Allison Grayhurst’s poems are simply masterpieces. Grayhurst’s poetry is a lighthouse of intelligent honour… indeed, intelligence rips through her work like white water,” Taylor Jane Green, Registered Spiritual Psychotherapist and author.


Book reviews of the River is Blind paperback:

“Throughout (The River is Blind), she (Allison Grayhurst) employs 
reiterated tropes of swallowing and being consumed, spatial fullness 
and emptiness, shut- in, caverns, chasms, cavities; angels, archangels, 
blasphemy, psalms; satiation or starved. With a conceit of unrequited sex as “my desire”, nocturnal emissions, awakening in the morning, the poet lives at capacity, uninhibited, dancing,” Anne Burke, poet, regional representative for Alberta on the League of Canadian Poets’ Council, and chair of the Feminist Caucus.


“Allison’s poetic prose is insightful, enwrapping, illuminating and brutally truthful. It probes the nature of the human spirit, relationships, spirituality and God. It is sung as the clearest song is sung within a cathedral by choir. It is whispered as faintly as a heartbroken goodbye. It is alive with the life of a thousand birds in flight within the first glint of morning sun. It is as solemn as the sad-sung ballad of a noble death. Read at your peril. You will never look at this world in quite the same way again. Your eye will instinctively search the sky for eagles and scan the dark earth for the slightest movement of smallest ant, your heart will reach for tall mountains, bathe in the most intimate of passions and in the grain and grit of our earth. Such is Allison Grayhurst. Such is her poetry. THE RIVER IS BLIND is a must-read,”  Eric M. Vogt, poet and author.



5 responses to “Intimacy

  1. Congratulations – a breathtaking poem alluding to a breathtaking experience!
    The rhythm of this poem seems to capture the moment and then release it. Beautifully written. 🙂

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