The laws that find me bind me
heavy and wasted
as in the first weeks of lost love,
as if the lifting song of summer sank in the bog
of my many crippled attempts at salvation.
Loose skin around the cheekbones.
Fissures repeat kaleidoscope visions.
Snake bites on my ankles like
the opaque rules of tedious afternoons, trying
to cut clean into a full separation the already divided wind.
Exhibitions and energy not worth keeping.
Anger resolves with an ethereal kill,
making and placing food on the table to limit the direction
of desire. Desire to stalk a pale flame
and grow a core of heat, but instead
snipped and clipped at the meridian centre,
pitted against love at its softest point. Love
at its most isolating point,
flayed across a concrete pyramid, inside
a Minotaur-maze of forgotten escape routes.
Dealt and received, a stack of conditions
that can never be lifted or walked away from.
I will speak because
the explosive veined-sun dominates our Earth’s universe,
and bloody barren corpses infiltrate the ground,
calling upon mealworm dialogue – calling for useless conversation,
eating makebelief applecore practicalities and gossip seeds
like ‘Bobok’’s people in various degrees of decomposition.
Let me live on the rooftops, away from the ghosts
puffing up their tuffs with spintop epilogues of I, I, I, and God
in all four pockets – enslaved, once-beautiful divinity,
to sloppy-string opinions and ritualized overload.
Great stained-glass eyes of the one eye, where are you?
Only the sound of a shallow drumbeat drumming,
plunging me into this sewer-tunnel template, dangerous
as the planet we are all forced to manoeuver on.
Save me from cherished traditions and filing-cabinet dreams.
Save me from my bodily needs. Transform me into an angel or into
the one transformed from the angel – never to come here again,
except to hold my only true love
and to cradle close the heads of my sleeping children.
Reference to Bobok:
Copyright © 2012 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “The Kitchen Poet”, December 2013
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