Growing the grey
Splendor is stolen.
I call high but am dammed
to the form of a lesser magic.
In captivity it is harder to communicate
the truth, to find the altar of happiness.
All things I have are stolen.
From a ship dismounted, I landed
and stole. I am always stealing and losing
God, cracking the cup of my direction.
Bodies exist to understand the brutality of loneliness,
to yield first to breath, then to sex and then to death.
When I was a candle I had the courage of a candle.
Planets I once walked upon are dead. Could I have been a child,
and now I am not? How is it possible to give up
the solidity of imagination?
Take me back through the ice-cross
in the skylight, into the glow,
sniffing cool blue-green spores – smells purer than spin.
Caves and stars, coloured covered canvases
melting into unison. Alchemy as I walked, dissolving
into the flesh of constant spring, as I walked,
sprouting the nuclei of many mountains.
Copyright © 2012 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Ehanom Review”, February 2014
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“Allison’s poetic prose is insightful, enwrapping, illuminating and brutally truthful. It probes the nature of the human spirit, relationships, spirituality and God. It is sung as the clearest song is sung within a cathedral by choir. It is whispered as faintly as a heartbroken goodbye. It is alive with the life of a thousand birds in flight within the first glint of morning sun. It is as solemn as the sad-sung ballad of a noble death. Read at your peril. You will never look at this world in quite the same way again. Your eye will instinctively search the sky for eagles and scan the dark earth for the slightest movement of smallest ant, your heart will reach for tall mountains, bathe in the most intimate of passions and in the grain and grit of our earth. Such is Allison Grayhurst. Such is her poetry,” Eric M. Vogt, poet and author.