You Would Not Have Me


You Would Not Have Me


I would have taken the whole of you

in one hand, guiding you

through the pressured caverns of

a multi-layered release, and not let go

until your anguish was exposed and then relieved.

But you would not have me,

immune to my inferno and my skin

electrified with desire

for you to hold me, tuning out a rhythm on

my clustered nerves. You would not have me,

not slice such intensity with your tongue, not offer ease,

just a little ease, to my rising frenzy. And you,

stoically contained, flirting with a superficial smile

and with those blind to your tall form. I could have

freed you into the depths

where ugly things wake to a surprising beauty,

glowing with rapture, like a last breath

before surrender. You could have

been mine.



Copyright © 2012 by Allison Grayhurst



First published in “Napalm and Novocain”

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“Allison Grayhurst intertwines a potent spirituality throughout her work so that each poem is not simply a statement or observation, but a revelation that demands the reader’s personal involvement. Grayhurst’s poetic genius is profound and evident. Her voice is uniquely authentic, undeniable in its dignified vulnerability as it is in its significance,” Kyp Harness, singer/songwriter, author.

“Allison Grayhurst’s poems are like cathedrals witnessing and articulating in unflinching graphic detail the gritty angst and grief of life, while taking it to rare clarity, calm and comfort. Grayhurst’s work is haunting, majestic and cleansing, often leaving one breathless in the wake of its intelligence, hope, faith and love amidst the muck of life. Many of Allison Grayhurst’s poems are simply masterpieces. Grayhurst’s poetry is a lighthouse of intelligent honour… indeed, intelligence rips through her work like white water,” Taylor Jane Green, Registered Spiritual Psychotherapist and author.


Book reviews of the River is Blind paperback:

“Throughout (The River is Blind), she (Allison Grayhurst) employs 
reiterated tropes of swallowing and being consumed, spatial fullness 
and emptiness, shut- in, caverns, chasms, cavities; angels, archangels, 
blasphemy, psalms; satiation or starved. With a conceit of unrequited sex as “my desire”, nocturnal emissions, awakening in the morning, the poet lives at capacity, uninhibited, dancing,” Anne Burke, poet, regional representative for Alberta on the League of Canadian Poets’ Council, and chair of the Feminist Caucus.


“Allison’s poetic prose is insightful, enwrapping, illuminating and brutally truthful. It probes the nature of the human spirit, relationships, spirituality and God. It is sung as the clearest song is sung within a cathedral by choir. It is whispered as faintly as a heartbroken goodbye. It is alive with the life of a thousand birds in flight within the first glint of morning sun. It is as solemn as the sad-sung ballad of a noble death. Read at your peril. You will never look at this world in quite the same way again. Your eye will instinctively search the sky for eagles and scan the dark earth for the slightest movement of smallest ant, your heart will reach for tall mountains, bathe in the most intimate of passions and in the grain and grit of our earth. Such is Allison Grayhurst. Such is her poetry. THE RIVER IS BLIND is a must-read,”  Eric M. Vogt, poet and author.



4 responses to “You Would Not Have Me

  1. gosh/ amazing/. another allison’s moving feast. I must confess two things; The 1st time I heard you read, i heard ,”my custard nerves”
    (& tho’ I thot “Hmm, I missed that” I needed to go back, reread)
    Also I couldn’t help but to wonder a bit about
    the fool.

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