wide with surrender
with no backdrop or formula,
with the accomplishment of releasing
plans by the wayside into the swamp
that used to be an instrument playing,
a cliff of clay forming a tireless gale
of heavy sensual dreams.
I belong to you and to the strength of your empty hands,
the endings you leave me with, harvesting
ephemeral food – a soul full
of coastal curves that break the waters and is broken
by them, pressing and caressing the chain of tidal
obliteration as an umbilical cord connecting
to the vast sweet space that is you.
Never meant to anchor roots or climb a sturdy cliff,
you stop my struggle to illuminate a typical liberation,
gaining the wherewithal to stay pale,
upright and destined in my cage.
For it is not a hellish home, but submerged
in the damp abandon of your shaking,
it is subject to your prying appendages poking,
tearing away speech and understanding.
I am yours, withdrawn from words into a connection
washed with elements of prayer but unlike prayer
more like lemonade to the day labourer or grass
to the grazing mare – away from bit, halter and reigns –
your sun sinking its evening heat into my back and shoulders,
erasing division, drawing an intimacy
that frees my blood’s natural flow, squeezes out
the clotted clump of summoning-up
of years scarred by grief and hidden,
.Copyright © 2012 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Change Seven Magazine, Issue 1.2 Summer 2015” June 2015
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“Allison’s poetic prose is insightful, enwrapping, illuminating and brutally truthful. It probes the nature of the human spirit, relationships, spirituality and God. It is sung as the clearest song is sung within a cathedral by choir. It is whispered as faintly as a heartbroken goodbye. It is alive with the life of a thousand birds in flight within the first glint of morning sun. It is as solemn as the sad-sung ballad of a noble death. Read at your peril. You will never look at this world in quite the same way again. Your eye will instinctively search the sky for eagles and scan the dark earth for the slightest movement of smallest ant, your heart will reach for tall mountains, bathe in the most intimate of passions and in the grain and grit of our earth. Such is Allison Grayhurst. Such is her poetry,” Eric M. Vogt, poet and author.