I Leave Whole


I Leave Whole


To me the sound was pure as rain –

blending with tomorrow

and the empty figures pacing the hallway

as though separated from their own haunting.

It was the sound of sorrow,

merging the old with the future –

nothing in the palm, nothing shining into the day.

Waking like this – all possessions burned,

and then even further

released. Waking under the seat of the throne –

closer than I’ve ever been before.

I want your love. I want to taste that joy,

but joy is not meant to be today. Today

is a banquet of fake flowers – flawless, scentless,

dollar store gifts, strategically placed among

the dust and roaches.

I want your love to consume me, to let false love go

so that I know that love bound here is love

bound forever.



Copyright © 2010 by Allison Grayhurst





First published in “Eunoia Review” June 2015

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“Allison Grayhurst intertwines a potent spirituality throughout her work so that each poem is not simply a statement or observation, but a revelation that demands the reader’s personal involvement. Grayhurst’s poetic genius is profound and evident. Her voice is uniquely authentic, undeniable in its dignified vulnerability as it is in its significance,” Kyp Harness, singer/songwriter, author.

“Allison Grayhurst’s poems are like cathedrals witnessing and articulating in unflinching graphic detail the gritty angst and grief of life, while taking it to rare clarity, calm and comfort. Grayhurst’s work is haunting, majestic and cleansing, often leaving one breathless in the wake of its intelligence, hope, faith and love amidst the muck of life. Many of Allison Grayhurst’s poems are simply masterpieces. Grayhurst’s poetry is a lighthouse of intelligent honour… indeed, intelligence rips through her work like white water,” Taylor Jane Green, Registered Spiritual Psychotherapist and author.

Reviews of ‘Pushing Through the Jelly Fire’:

“This, (Pushing Through the Jelly Fire) is my second favorite book of poetry by Allison Grayhurst. I have it in paperback. I read a lot of poetry across a lot of blogs but Grayhurst’s work stands above the crowd and is of tremendous quality. I highly recommend this and The River is Blind. Her quality of writing is of a high standard and never ceases to lift my spirits as I turn pages in paperback or kindle,” Bruce Ruston, poet, photographer, founding editor of The Poetry Jar.

“Another Grayhurst masterpiece, Allison’s work has inspired me to continue creating and reading poetry,” Ann Johnson-Murphree, poet.



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