Am I to speak of the hangnail pain,
though no season was lost and there
are no backstairs to climb?
Am I to miss you in the garden
we never had, in the memories
of never being close but always
And the time you ran frightened of me
through the alleyways, as though we never loved,
never knew the trust of wounds
we helped each other heal. Never you
wanting more than to maintain
your dignity, your freedom, your
contemplative stare. Never you
giving more than the most
of your compassion, the gentle restraint
of your excited spirit.
And to die like that,
killing the final cord. Stinging slowly, so slow
it’s hard to cry, to not wish one last swim with you
under the fullmoon just staring
forever into that small-town sky.
Copyright © 1997 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Novelmasters” July 2015
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