In the wilderness of my dreams,
never shining a colour I could own
as a bluejay, its feathers.
How many worlds must I enter
to peel away to the light?
How to gather sand and build a rock?
And at night,
even love’s generosity
is not so glorious,
even happiness cancels out
a great intensity.
I think strength means
knowing how to suffer
Strip me of this darkness and
let me lean against a beating chest.
I am not to be scattered like a weakling seed
or tossed from shoulder to shoulder
like a child without a home.
In the solid middle I will dive,
driving away my rage and the stuff
of distraction that devours
the better workings of my heart.
Copyright © 2000 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “the chicago record magazine” August 2015
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