I hold the air.
I am without control. In this chapel I walk
with my father and the others I loved who have left
for a new journey. I walk with the parables of their souls,
imprinted on my throat, in my belly,
everywhere where there is eternity.
I tell my father of my shell that has cracked in two,
of the burning of the elements and how I miss
his brown eyes, his protective hands and lop-sided
smile. I tell him, thank you
for the poem you gave me when you left, for the dreams
and all the anguish, challenges and reconciliations
we shared. I tell him, thank you for loving me so deeply
as to change yourself,
as to let me be a catalyst for your peace,
for your soul’s reward. I tell him –
I will never get over the pain
of losing you, the joy of having you,
how much you loved me,
showed me the generosity of God.
In this chapel, I walk with him,
I hold his hand. I am still his child. I am still
Copyright © 2010 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Mount Parable Poetry Forum” October 2015
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Reviews of ‘Pushing Through the Jelly Fire’:
“This, (Pushing Through the Jelly Fire) is my second favorite book of poetry by Allison Grayhurst. I have it in paperback. I read a lot of poetry across a lot of blogs but Grayhurst’s work stands above the crowd and is of tremendous quality. I highly recommend this and The River is Blind. Her quality of writing is of a high standard and never ceases to lift my spirits as I turn pages in paperback or kindle,” Bruce Ruston, poet, photographer, founding editor of The Poetry Jar.
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