Forging a map
to lead me from
this private drain where faith steals
in like a toothache. I will uncover
a different dimension of faith, faith
that has no invested outcome, has no
burdensome wounds. Years of the pigment
plucked from my beating chest, years of desperate
expectations, liquefying my organs, walking
as though I mattered, feeling brave against the world.
This faith will have no words,
projecting into tomorrow, will have no ‘me’
in the mix, but be just faith hovering
like a ring around my Saturn –
it will grace me while I am sleeping
so I will have strength in the day.
It will not carry the weight of guilt,
regret or self-defeating sin.
It will be a flood, eliminating the insides
of my house with one clean sweep. It will rise
in me, and I will give myself wholly over to it –
not even a fragment left of
my former needs.
Copyright © 2010 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Malevolent Pegasus Literary Zine” November 2015
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