To Leave This Sickness
I am sick like the bug-eaten rose or
the old awaiting death.
I have been reversed,
thrown into the garbage can.
There is nothing to come that will help,
nothing to hold the two halves of my head
together. I shout out. I stop shouting and
silence is what I have.
I am through with myself, with this
ungoverned agitation mounting and
hurling at others – then imploding like a thousand thistles
projectiling on the inside.
I know nothing. Nothing of faith
and of God who I so love.
The car is coming, the blue beam has
arrived. I am going. I want to go
and see myself untrapped
– me, but not this me –
on the other side.
Copyright © 2006 by Allison Grayhurst
Published in “Inscribed Museum Literary Zine” November 2015
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