Leaning in the Weeds
Drink for the stopping of stormy pride, not
for the one word irreparable
under the sun.
When longing ceases for everything
but the grave and the mind spins in
shock, in rage, then what could
never be, becomes real enough to erase good memory.
Hope and love’s security crash in the cumulative point –
a wound released that will consume more and more.
Hear the mock of watching angels, the friend
beside you, happy for your defeat.
Why does envy ring a lunatic groan,
as if it was pure instinct that cannot be controlled?
Where does the courage hide to face this bitter,
Through the night of blasphemous pain,
leaping into the burn of violent betrayal,
no morality can restrain this filthy eye –
defeated, deformed, surrounded on all sides.
Copyright © 1998 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Communicators League” March 2017
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“Allison Grayhurst intertwines a potent spirituality throughout her work so that each poem is not simply a statement or observation, but a revelation that demands the reader’s personal involvement. Grayhurst’s poetic genius is profound and evident. Her voice is uniquely authentic, undeniable in its dignified vulnerability as it is in its significance,” Kyp Harness, singer/songwriter, author.
“Allison Grayhurst’s poems are like cathedrals witnessing and articulating in unflinching graphic detail the gritty angst and grief of life, while taking it to rare clarity, calm and comfort. Grayhurst’s work is haunting, majestic and cleansing, often leaving one breathless in the wake of its intelligence, hope, faith and love amidst the muck of life. Many of Allison Grayhurst’s poems are simply masterpieces. Grayhurst’s poetry is a lighthouse of intelligent honour… indeed, intelligence rips through her work like white water,” Taylor Jane Green, Registered Spiritual Psychotherapist and author.
Review of The Longing To Be:
“The contents of Allison Grayhurst’s book The Longing To Be are both personal and universal and are described in such thematic and golden terms that one can see that a lot of thought has gone into each line. The poems are written mostly in free verse throughout, with both rhythm and soul weaved into them. For some poems, the layout seems experimental, and there is definitely a playfulness in the way that the words and verses fall onto the page. Others do conform to a “norm”, whatever that is. All are dramatic and thoughtful. These are layered poems with new horizons presented to the reader in every re-read. The effect is to keep things fresh with poems that constantly surprise in spite, and because of, the number of times being read. I thoroughly recommend The Longing To Be as a poetry book to study carefully and cherish far into the future,” poet Brian Shirra.