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Not Enough

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Here

 

is how it feels to be toyed with when

hungry, to be taken when

in love, to be sent back when

needing so much just to find a window to

leap through, something to make

my hands tight with conviction, to be

overweight with passion.

 

Here

 

is how cruel your slick indifference is,

decaying my devotion for higher places,

taking the syrup from my smile, and the

crippled sun it brings.

 

Here

 

afraid, deep in the sinister void,

deep in Monday night, deep in the

left-over memories.

 

Here

 

down like a coffin weight, down

into indulgent depths, down

into the thickening ache, determined still

yet to rise . . .

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Copyright © 1997 by Allison Grayhurst

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First published in “Bewildering Stories, Issue 710” April 2017

   

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“Allison Grayhurst intertwines a potent spirituality throughout her work so that each poem is not simply a statement or observation, but a revelation that demands the reader’s personal involvement. Grayhurst’s poetic genius is profound and evident. Her voice is uniquely authentic, undeniable in its dignified vulnerability as it is in its significance,” Kyp Harness, singer/songwriter, author.

“Allison Grayhurst’s poems are like cathedrals witnessing and articulating in unflinching graphic detail the gritty angst and grief of life, while taking it to rare clarity, calm and comfort. Grayhurst’s work is haunting, majestic and cleansing, often leaving one breathless in the wake of its intelligence, hope, faith and love amidst the muck of life. Many of Allison Grayhurst’s poems are simply masterpieces. Grayhurst’s poetry is a lighthouse of intelligent honour… indeed, intelligence rips through her work like white water,” Taylor Jane Green, Registered Spiritual Psychotherapist and author.

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