I lived in error


I lived in error



in smoke, in a station


            the clouds.

I rolled through

                        phantom pits,

finding fondness in each

                                    fathomless descent.

            With rage and thick


            my mortality

                        was stained.

And there, coughed up, anointed

            by the deep, your love

took me past

                        my generations stalking


in every science and witch-craft cure,

                                    past the feel

            of condemning visions, and intellectuals

seeping their venom

                        into every

                                    willing heart.

            Your love like a lingering

                                                pain, pulling

me through alleyways and dungeons,


with a terrible force, the sickness

            from my veins, and yet

                        as tender as

                                    a riverwave

in gentle flow, guides me




Copyrright © 1996 by Allison Grayhurst


For Every Rain Cover 5



First published in “Schrodinger’s Cat”, 1996



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“Allison’s poetic prose is insightful, enwrapping, illuminating and brutally truthful. It probes the nature of the human spirit, relationships, spirituality and God. It is sung as the clearest song is sung within a cathedral by choir. It is whispered as faintly as a heartbroken goodbye. It is alive with the life of a thousand birds in flight within the first glint of morning sun. It is as solemn as the sad-sung ballad of a noble death. Read at your peril. You will never look at this world in quite the same way again. Your eye will instinctively search the sky for eagles and scan the dark earth for the slightest movement of smallest ant, your heart will reach for tall mountains, bathe in the most intimate of passions and in the grain and grit of our earth. Such is Allison Grayhurst. Such is her poetry,”  Eric M. Vogt, poet and author.

“Grayhurst is a great Canadian poet. All of Allison Grayhurst’s poetry is original, sometimes startling, and more often than not, powerful. Anyone who loves modern poetry that does not follow the common path will find Grayhurst complex, insightful, and as good a poet as anyone writing in the world today. Grayhurst’s poetry volumes are highly, highly recommended,” Tom Davis, poet, novelist and educator.

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