There is too much to say
and nothing to do after it’s been said.
Commotion kills my throat,
starts like a heat-wave, anticipated.
That is a discomfort I frequent.
Others form techniques that neatly construct
and dispose of information. They define symbols that filter light,
use three letter examples, harming no-one
when they disappear.
They do not strain in the depths, but grip the depths,
then let it go.
When I try to swallow what’s core,
it lodges between my teeth,
swells my gums, overextends my jaw,
until it malfunctions like the rest I covet, inadequately burning.
It would be good to combust, be direct as ambition, cut
an indispensable horizon from a deflated balloon.
But I am free and I choose to fizzle,
I choose these backwards repetitions – pressure
that is purely exhale. I don’t know how
to point without pushing,
how to relax vertically as a willow tree, or be like a park bench –
offering considerable comfort to those
who have walked too long.
I find myself fixated first on detail,
spending long sessions with my microscope, discovering
blooming atoms, food crumbs, enthusiastic correlations
of the tiny to the oversized.
Then I find myself bleeding out their definitions, running
to theatres where I can be stimulated
by abstract reflection.
I enter a clear understanding with half-closed eyes,
willfully smudging lines, numbers, concise melodies.
Others are sufficient, contented to observe
elements moving, sometimes rotating,
immune like strict realism is
to crazed impressionistic form.
Copyright © 2011 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “The Muse (An International Journal of Poetry)”
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Book reviews of the River is Blind paperback:
“Throughout (The River is Blind), she (Allison Grayhurst) employs
reiterated tropes of swallowing and being consumed, spatial fullness
and emptiness, shut- in, caverns, chasms, cavities; angels, archangels,
blasphemy, psalms; satiation or starved. With a conceit of unrequited sex
as “my desire”, nocturnal emissions, awakening in the morning, the poet lives
at capacity, uninhibited, dancing,” Anne Burke, poet, regional representative
for Alberta on the League of Canadian Poets’ Council, and chair of
the Feminist Caucus.
“Allison’s poetic prose is insightful, enwrapping, illuminating and brutally truthful. It probes the nature of the human spirit, relationships, spirituality and God. It is sung as the clearest song is sung within a cathedral by choir. It is whispered as faintly as a heartbroken goodbye. It is alive with the life of a thousand birds in flight within the first glint of morning sun. It is as solemn as the sad-sung ballad of a noble death. Read at your peril. You will never look at this world in quite the same way again. Your eye will instinctively search the sky for eagles and scan the dark earth for the slightest movement of smallest ant, your heart will reach for tall mountains, bathe in the most intimate of passions and in the grain and grit of our earth. Such is Allison Grayhurst. Such is her poetry. THE RIVER IS BLIND is a must-read,” Eric M. Vogt, poet and author.