Bleed and cup my blood
into the robe of your ever-after.
Be on your feet and bark at the joy
that lit fire and now is nowhere.
Spider in my sink, spider that is holy.
I want to kill you, but I will not. Today,
I empathize with your scurrying fear
and how you dangle, almost flying.
How long must I sleep beside the lizards, with
their devouring claws and eclipsing cold scales?
In a river, the laundry was made. Soft and thunderstruck,
you are in an open yard, counting rooftops
and dewdrops simultaneously, keeping in time
with the innate music that saturates your origami mind.
Breastkisses, bellykisses. It started and it is
rushing, restless and rained-on. You know a place
where traffic will not find us, where fingertips are never afraid
of fondling, and noise is floating overhead like a weather balloon.
Insanity scrapes the insides of shells until all flesh is gone,
consumed by a dead-hour echo of a pulse.
Step on me, I want to be stepped on, torn
apart by a moth. Gritty nails and wrinkled throats.
You give pressure to the cord. I am
losing myself to the undercurrent surfacing –
thwarted by my own aggression and desires growing
a thousand eyes.
Bridges everywhere I will not cross because I have crossed
into a more real role. I don’t smile unless I feel it. I feel it
hardly looking at pictures. But at you,
it is different, always established that I will fall backwards
into the water for you and you will be warm for me,
lap at my earlobes, under my knee caps, morphing your
temporal needs with my own. Faith, you said,
cannot be a part-time affair.
You land on my petals, demonstrate
vulnerability, wise in the ways of how to gently land
and how to bud at zero speed.
.Copyright © 2012 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Winamop” September 2015
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