I Dive To Rise
I give it up – the racing dread, erasing
the good from my garden and the dawn from my eyes.
I give it up like a heavy stone
that once tied my sailor’s bones
to the earth. I dive deep into the salty liquid,
healing as I let go of the weight,
the power, the need for control.
I give it up – the undone deeds of expectation,
the ability to swim or breathe or feed on blood and bread.
I’m done with planting and days of endurance.
I’m done with mouthing platitudes of hope and guilt
that shouldn’t have been mine to bear.
I’m done with self-pity and the wages of truth.
I give it up and dive deep into the watery belly
where no footprint has ever been. Sleeping is the same
as waking is the same as staring at the minnows
and piranhas head on – the same as growing gills and talking
without sound. I give it up and give to get
a way out of these decade-old barriers, a way away from
the quarter moon heart and the vices
I hear every day like corpses rising
among the vulture birds, voices that have hands
frantic, with no where to go . . .
Copyright © 2010 by Allison Grayhurst
First published in “Siren, Issue 7, Summer 2015” September 2015
Published in “Viral Cat” Fall 2015
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Reviews of ‘Pushing Through the Jelly Fire’:
“This, (Pushing Through the Jelly Fire) is my second favorite book of poetry by Allison Grayhurst. I have it in paperback. I read a lot of poetry across a lot of blogs but Grayhurst’s work stands above the crowd and is of tremendous quality. I highly recommend this and The River is Blind. Her quality of writing is of a high standard and never ceases to lift my spirits as I turn pages in paperback or kindle,” Bruce Ruston, poet, photographer, founding editor of The Poetry Jar.
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